I think I'll change this page into a sort of journal. Perhaps someone will read it someday and see the me of that moment. Maybe I'll actually become a best-selling author and this will be my story of success. Or maybe this will just be me musing over being lonely, thinking about deep and odd questions, and geeking out over movies and anime and games and books...
I genuinely want to end this loneliness, though... I wonder if I'll ever find that girl, whoever, wherever, and whenever that may be... The sad thing is that I've been told by people older than I am, who would know, that life is lonely. I think life should never be lonely. I know so many people, yet here I sit, alone at home. I write on my book ideas. I waste my life with video games and anime. And I go to school, learn, then shirk off the work because I find it pointless. Schooling in general, not just college, should be about whether you know the stuff or not, not about how much you're willing to work. I am only willing to do things that help others. Hell, I'm not even motivated to help myself. I'm skinny and unhealthy. I'm all alone. My teeth could be better. So could my skin and scalp (I have very little hair)...
I think, in the end, I am only going to be another drop in the ocean. I will write and publish my ideas. Maybe people will love them, maybe not. I will go through life and pursue love and peace. Maybe I will find love, maybe not. But peace is something I can create for myself, at least...
To anyone out there who may read this, don't think ill of me. I'm not emo, or depressed. I have a lot of self control, so I rarely feel down like this. But in moments of weakness, and at 2am no less, I have been known to whine about my life as if I had any right to.
I am a GrandMasterListener. But right now, there's no one talking to me...
